Did you recently graduate and now don’t know what’s next in life? When I first started my freshmen year at Western Kentucky University, I had my life all planned out for once I graduated. I was majoring in Fashion Merchandising with a minor in Marketing. I had plans of moving to either Los Angeles or New York City and becoming this big fashion industry person being a stylist. During my junior year, my dreams of becoming a stylist soon shattered as I realized it was an extremely hard job industry to break into. I then decided that I was still going to move to either of those cities, I was just going to become an assistant buyer or visual merchandiser.
Reality hit once that Monday after I walked the stage came. I had landed a full-time job, paying $8.50 an hour. Like wait what? Is this really a wage that I was supposed to survive off of? I mainly took the job because I had one class left to complete before I officially graduated, and that was an internship course. After my first day on the job, I got a bad vibe and didn’t enjoy myself and I never showed back up after. Then I was out struggling again to find another job in retail to take my care of my internship class I needed. And then New York and Company called me. They were only paying me $7.60 an hour. And then Shoe Sensation and that was only $7.25 an hour. I thought, man this is not the life I wanted. Everyone else around me were either finding a job in their field starting out making $35,000 and/or off to graduate school. I felt lost and like I was heading nowhere in life. I felt like a big failure and that my degree was going to be a complete waste, especially after I finally got a job that was decent pay, $10.00 at Afni, a call center.
I had taken a year off from going back to school to get my life together and decide exactly what it is in life that I wanted to do. My plans were to move back home, get a job, get my money right, study and take the GRE, and then apply to schools. Although I had this plan set, I still felt like I was going nowhere in life. I had a Bachelor’s degree and I was working two jobs, University of Memphis Bookstore making $8.00 an hour and at JCPenney’s making $8.50 an hour. If I wanted to move out of my parents’ home, because lord knows that they urked my nerves, I couldn’t even do that. I was barely getting 20 hours a week at both jobs combined.
Here I am, 8 months after I graduated and am finally working a Full-Time salaried job, but to be completely honest, I don’t hate the job, but it’s not something I see myself doing for the rest of my life. I don’t want a 9-5, desk job, making 90-100 outbound calls a day. I guess you can say it’s been hitting me hard here lately, that I am actually not in New York or Los Angeles being the best Assistant Buyer that I know I have the full potential to be. I took a year off from graduate school to figure out my life and what I want to do and I still feel like I haven’t done that. I’m still struggling to find out what my reason for being here is, to find out what I will enjoy waking up every morning doing, and what I can see myself doing for the rest of my life.
It’s definitely been an uphill battle, but I know that it’s nothing that I can’t figure out. So sit back, relax, don’t stress, and do what you have to do to get where you need to be.